Lately I have learned about the duality of life. I met this
magnificent young woman today that was capable of so much, but the world around
her did not understand her lived experience. I learned of the importance of
being kind when people around you are not and it’s not necessarily because turning
the other cheek is ethical, but rather because some people’s unkindness doesn’t
quite stem from a place of hatred or prejudice and instead stems from personal insecurities.
People have been teaching me that they are so much more than a vessel for the
mind, they are a reflection of the world and I am learning to take them as they
are even when sometimes it hurts. I have also learned about myself and my own
patterns of behavior when dealing with sadness: I tend to overcompensate in the
settings outside of where my sadness originated by overexerting myself and
doing all that I can to be the embodiment of joy. I think it has to do with my
own pain manifesting itself in an outlet that tries to push the pain out of others
and bring forth a smile, a laugh, or some type of positive energy. This is when
people believe I am the happiest, but in truth, it’s when I am at the lowest
state because I will do anything that I can to get higher and so I seem
relentless, perhaps even childlike in my passionate demeanor. So yes, lately I
am learning about the duality of life and how the good comes with the bad so
that when I am down, I can propel myself back upwards.