In and out of inebriation by mind shifts years to the next station of songs that are meant to be listened to in the shower with ha sad reluctance to life and the death of you in minute steps as you walk down the path to hell Remember that I loved and gave all good things that came from within until one day that I found myself on the floor wondering what was next in this difficult life full of strife and so I disguised my fears because I knew from day one that fears would lead to the end of my universe within you and all that I could do was try to erase the sad moments and reimburse you with happy thoughts of life and love with a mischievous woman like me that dedicated her waking days to building the love we desired because without you I could no longer find myself happy in this world and I hoped that I would be enough and so I gave and gave until I collapsed on this bed made of flowers that you brought home one day but flowers wither so easily. Did you?
Those looking in through clear glass windows find a scene of joy and peace
But their eyes can’t look through timelines of pain, sadness, and grief.
So, as I step on the porch to pick up all that corresponds,
They see a smiling girl between green palm fronds
Ignorant to the tribulations that led her there.
In one moment, I caught their eye staring with envy
And felt sad once again from memories within, trembling.
Instead I tried to open my heart and let the floodgates spill
And out of me and into them rose a chill
For my eyes told a story that they could not bear.